Senioritis (Part 1)

Senioritis (Part 1)

So Close. SOOOOO CLOSE!

Raise your hand, my Dolls, if you are a senior this year! Whether you’re a high school senior, a college senior, or in your last year of grad school, I bet you’re feeling the same pain as I am right now. You’re trying to hold on until you get your degree, but it’s just so painfully hard. For those of you who don’t know, “senioritis” is actually in the dictionary. Well, dictionary.com at least. Senioritis is defined asa decline in motivation or academic performance that supposedly afflicts some seniors in high school [or college], especially in their last term.” Luckily, I have not experienced a decline in academic performance (knock on wood), but my motivation is at an all-time low.

It’s just not fair! I feel like I’m so close but so far. I’ve spent like-what almost 19 years in school counting everything from pre-school and kindergarten to now! After so much studying and so tests, papers, note cards, bio labs, etc., etc., etc., I’m just tired of it all. There was a point in my life (when I was like 6) when I loved school so much I was willing to go even if there was a snow storm. Things have definitely changed since then.

If you have ever been a senior before, I’m completely sure you’ve felt this same way. So, here are a few reasons why it’s so hard told hold on during your senior year of anything.

When You’ve Already Experienced Senioritis Once

The worst part about having senioritis in college is that you’ve already had senioritis in high school. You already know all of the highs and the lows of being a senior. You’ve felt the pain of wanting to get done and get out ASAP. As a senior in college, you pretty much know what’s coming to you. You already know how anxious you’ll be feeling the last month (or last few months) to just get out of there!

When It’s Christmas Season

When you’re not a senior, it’s hard enough to endure school during the holiday season. You feel like you’re missing out on all of the holiday cheer the season has to offer. It’s definitely not fair! As a senior in college, every season is even harder to go through. You’re so close to being out of school completely that you just imagine what spring, summer, fall, and winter will be like without having to worry about homework anymore.

Right now, senior year is getting in the way of my holiday decorating and shopping to be quite honest. One thing that really bugs me is that during my first two years of college, the fall semester ended exactly a week before Christmas. Starting last year, my school changed the schedule so the semester ends only days before Christmas. I just want to enjoy the Christmas season without thinking about studying for finals or working on my thesis!

When You’ve Already Had a Taste of the Real World

I spent the last two summers in an office at internships. They weren’t your typical internships where I was fetching coffee every day.  I was given real career responsibilities and a taste of the real world. Even now during the semester, I work part-time at one of the places I interned at. It is extremely hard spending an entire summer at the place you can see yourself working full-time and then having to go back to sitting bored in a classroom where teachers give you endless assignments. I feel so much more confined in a classroom. Where I work now is where I want to be. I don’t want to keep waiting around for my career to happen!

When All of Your Friends Graduated Last Year

I feel like most of my friends from college graduated last year. Even a lot of my high school friends already graduated college. And, here I am. Still waiting to graduate. It makes you feel kind of out-of-the-loop being the last to graduate. It also makes you even more anxious to get out of college ASAP. It definitely motivates you to have a lack of motivation when it comes to schoolwork for the rest of your college career.

When It Seems Like All of The People In Your Life ARe Already Real Adults

Because a lot of my friends already graduated college, a lot of them have already gotten full-time jobs or are doing other things to be considered “real adults” in my book. It’s not only the people who I went to school with that are making me feel like the only one who’s not a real adult yet. Since I work in an office, obviously, I am surrounded by a bunch of real adults. It feels like everyone I’m surrounded by already has their life together. They have a job they love and a relationship they’re happy with. They have moved out of their parents‘ house and some of them even have their own pet. It sounds really fun to be at that point in my life. So, I have even more senioritis because of that.

When You Feel Like a Real Adult But Then School is Like “NOPE!”

I keep telling people that I’m a pretend adult. Yeah, I have a job that I love and a mature relationship that I’ve been waiting for all my life. I can do adult things like buy a bottle of wine, treat myself to a nice dinner, and work in an office. But, I’m still in school. I feel like school is holding me back from being a real adult like my graduate friends and my coworkers. I feel like a real adult when I’m in the office or when I plan a fancy holiday dinner for my friends, but then either the weekend ends or 1 PM strikes and I have to go back to class. My professors assign something else or hand back a grade that reminds me I’m still only a pretend/part-time adult. It’s almost like waking up from a dream.

School is rough. Being a senior is even worse because the end is so near but it seems so far. With the end of the fall semester so near and finals completely in view, senioritis is so real. No matter how much we complain about being a senior, there’s not much we can do until graduation day. We’ve come so far already, and we have so much to be proud of. All we can do now is hold on tight until the end of spring semester.

Hang tight, my Dolls!

I know it’s hard to be happy while you’re so stressed this semester. Take some time to be thankful for what you have. Read “Real Talk: Why You Should Live Gratefully.”

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